SENTIMENTALISM. (being grateful)

Yesterday as I was once again crying at a party I realized how freaking important my people are. I tend to cry a lot. The problem I have is that I hardly ever cry alone. The things that are inside me only come on a surfice when there is people everywhere. And I mean it's fine. But yesterday when I was in this purely sentimental state I realized how much I love my dearest friends.

It sucks to cry at a party bcs you start to become aware that your time at high school is ending. I have never thought this would be such a difficult topic for me. We tend to talk about it a lot, especially this time of the year with all those school dances and balls. This was the last dance of our school before us. And it is freaking terrifying to think of it. We've been together for seven years and we've created strong bonds that you cannot just break, take and throw away as the vision of university is coming. And not only our class is a family but also the whole year is very close. Not everybody obviously, but many of us. And yesterday when I was crying and thinking I suddenly realized that there are very few friends that are out of school that I would give up everything for, like two or three.

And I'm writing this because I think it's important to be grateful for the people you are surrounded with. Because there are people I know that have literally nobody to talk to and they spend the whole time at high school being lonely. And it gives me chills when I think of it. Be grateful and be sentimentalists. I cry because of everything and people that don't know me that well are surprised. But really BLESS MY PEOPLE and bless your people. And know that there is nothing wrong with crying, whether it be alone or with people.